breathing ...

Breathe...
I'm having issues dealing with life tonight.

Breathe...
I gave up a lot in this search for home, trying to replicate the feeling of place that I had in my little house and gardens in Oklahoma 4 years ago.

Breathe...
I'm realizing that this is not the place. I am searching for something that no longer exists. My children are grown. I doubt if I'll ever own my home again. My new job is not what I had hoped.

Breathe...
But, most distressing, is how I've changed my most important relationship.

Breathe...
I need my Stardude. And now he's 2000 miles away.

Breathe...Breathe...